Pursuit Beyond the Grave
"We believed that our terrible war was a terrifying Hell; and so
were ashamed to hear God declare it to be just another instance
of man's brutal stupidity, with a promise of worse to come. We,
all being brave soldiers, are discouraged and more frightened
than ever, because death will no longer end our suffering."
soldier's account from 15th Century
diary
War is a form of Hell in which personal triumphs postpone private
loss. Death not only has its own currency, but also has its own
economy ... where value is more important than price, where
method is more important than purchases, and where means is more
important than objectives. Perhaps if funerals were as
debilitatingly dismal as the act of dying, and if mortuaries were
as starkly grotesque as unprepared death, then our unbelievable
sacrificial myths and deferential promises of enduring afterlife
would be less appealing to the gullible and credulous. Desperate
mourning and inconsolable grief do not herald another episodic
revival or instantaneous recycling of intermittent annihilation;
but proclaim triumphal death as our final defeat. War would
assume a hellish insanity if it could not achieve closure, if it
could not be interrupted, if it could not collapse into
exhaustion. The ability to silence the alarm, to quell the
challenge, to kill the adversary is critical to resolution.
Resurrecting dead issues and revitalizing extinct masses is every
combatant's nightmare. Every combatant suspects that weapons are
futile, and that an unjust cause or an impure heart cannot defeat
an implacable foe, who is immune to impotent means. The threat of
relentless death stalking the combat zone is not as horrible as
its total absence amidst persistent mayhem. We soon learn that
we're not invincible, but remain terrified that our inexorable
enemy can withstand everything ... and will pursue us beyond the
grave.
by Pan Perdu
... who is a former soldier and VA counselor; this work has been
excerpted from Fragmentations, a book in progress.
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